where the cheese went

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Happiness Redefine

Last week, I was browsing around the pastry section at Sobey’s and happened to stood next to an elderly gentleman who was looking at the cakes display. By elderly, I meant, he appears like a man in his seventies and walks with the support of a walking cane, his voice quivers and he seems to have came from a generation when tweed wear was still part of the pop-mass-street-culture, decades before Ralph Lauren turned it into a high fashion statement. He turned to the store attendent and said,

“Excuse me, I would like to order that cake for next Friday, the one with the blue and white balloons,” he tapped his finger at the glass of the refrigerator where the cake was sitting at.

“Just a minute, sir. The one with the balloons?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, what would you like to write on the cake?”

“Oh. Please write ‘Dear Sheila,’ and it is spelled S-H-E-I-L-A, ‘Happy 48th Anniversary, love, Art’ as in A-R-T.”

“Congratulations. Where do you want it delivered?”

“Oh. No. Thank you. My wife will find out. How about if my grandchildren pick it up for me? I thought I’d use their help to surprise my wife. This is what they look like...” He pulled out a photo of his grandkids, “This is Kevin, he’s eight, and this is Rachel, she’s fourteen. The fourteen year old will be able to take care of the cake. Do you need to make a copy of this?” The old, sweet dude had Operation Cake-Purchasing all planned out prior to his visit to the store.

“Awe, they’re cute. But we don’t need their picture, they can pick up the cake just by showing us the receipt.”

“Excellent! Thank you very much.” He smiled and seemed genuinely happy.

A small kind of bliss generated by an act of affection, as exampled by Arthur planning a surprise for his wife with the help of his grandchildren, somehow, in an extraordinary way, comes to weigh more than a university degree, having a hot boyfriend or a talent to show off and a noteworthy career than I’m desperate to erect. Who knows? Fifty years from now, they would probably be of little significance to me. However, if life turns out for the worst, then I would always remain envious of Art and Sheila (as well as a bunch of other people). Congratulations to the couple on their 48th anniversary, marriages that last as long as theirs are getting rare.


The Jelly Fish Aquarium at the Toronto Zoo, Summer 2009

Friday, May 14, 2010

Emo Venting Is Far From Over


"The harder we work, the luckier we get,” - Jon Bon Jovi.
Great concept, but the number of its proven real-life application probably mirrors the unequal distribution of opportunities and resources among North American artists; less mention the global population.

"When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person realize his dream." - Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist.
The universe is sure one bloody bias entity that plays “favorites” with people such Jon Bon Jovi.

Optimism is something that cannot not be taught to and/or influenced on especially when 'looking at the brighter side' ceased to be effective. Ever heard of 'Dry Optimism'? Nevertheless, "the first way to change your life is to change your mind," so a librarian told me today.




Addie at High Park, May 11th 2010.

Monday, May 10, 2010

It Still Snows In May

Hey guys,

Thank you so much for coming over yesterday despite the short notice, crappy weather, travel distance and pricey TTC fare. It wouldn't have been as fun and meaningful without you. It was undoubtedly one of the best, the most epic times that I've had since the new year of 2010. I hope that you enjoyed last night as much as I did and thanks again for being nothing less than awesome.Special thanks to Beth for the beautiful cake, which she had made from scratch and decorated. If it wasn't for her, there wouldn't have been a dinner+dessert kinda party at all.

With lots of love,
Siew Ling

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

生日礼物

我原本心已决定 - 就让过去成为过去, 而且近来的心情总算比之前平静了不少. 可是, 在我正想试着接容所谓的 '拿得起' 还有 '放得下' 的时候, 你千古 "难得" 传来的短讯又让我再次地沉没于绝望中. 我深知你永远都不会如同疼惜她那般地关护我, 而我今世来生也不会比她来得优先. 所以我不得不问你, 你这把戏儿何时已? 你何时才玩得够? 你是否不将把我逼得走头无路你就会坐立不安? 最后, 你的短讯上所说的, 我会依照你的指示去做, 算是我谢谢您的关心. 阿彌陀佛!


Garden findings: Dandelion

Sunday, May 2, 2010

当青春剩下日记 乌丝就要变成白发

I've had a couple of blogs and journals since 2004, however most of them were discontinued due to reasons such as 'I've grown out of emo-venting' and 'project completed, hence there's no need to track it anymore.'

Life goes on even when we're not blogging and/or leaving our little marks of existence on Facebook. Ironically, it is these marks of existence, as microscopic and virtual as they are, that help make what we did and who we connected with a little more meaningful upon retrospection.

Needless to say, they document our trivial thoughts and mundane actions, in which each respective one is like a grain of sand that assembles the sands of time in our mortal hour glass. Perhaps by looking back at the trail marks that we had left behind with the passage of time, we can come closer to understanding ourselves a little better at a later year or age.

Consider this blog created for my future Self when there comes a time for her, when she needs to and could only find the answers by looking back into her past.